Oh boy, the last weeks were really stressy. Had a lot to do at work, had to do all of the monthly reports for my apprenticeship of the last 3 years in 3 days (well it´s times like these were I hate to be a procrastinator par excellence hehe) and now I have to study for my final examns.

In addition to that, I have broken my new DVD burner in the most stupidest way. I just had bought it at christmas and it was really great and fast, but this wednesday, I broke the DVD tray in half. Oh boy, I was so mad at myself that I felt really sick. Anyways, I tried to fix it myself by extracting the tray of my old cd drive, but guess what, of course it doesn´t fit. Great. I hope that I can order a replacement tray right from the company. I mean, it doesn´t need to be a perfectly new tray, it would be sufficient if they could just send me a tray of a nonfunctional, irreparabel DVD drive that had gotten send in to them. And I would even pay for it. Well... I hope their customer service and tech support will help me out with this.

Gee, I also have to get my lazy ass up to look for an appartment in the town I want to go to university. And I have to get myself inscribed to one of the courses at that university. Time is running through my fingers it seems and I don´t seem to get myself up and going. I don´t know why, but I think I´m scared of change. I know that my job training will end in June and then I´ll be a certified vet tech, but I will not continue to work in the clinic I am in currently, and I´m not seeing this to be a job I´ll do the rest of my life. Payment is too small and the work itself isn´t something I love to do for the rest of my life. So I hope that studying biology or geoecology will get me something I like to do. But I´m not sure and I feel, that I cannot "waste" any more years of my life, after having turned 29 last week. Damn, I really wish I had made different decisions in my past, that I had not joined the military but instead had went to university right away. But what´s done is done and I have to somehow go on and do the best out of it all.